I think that people who knew me before and after, both, can probably see that I'm not the same. I doubt that anyone has tracked why because you'd really have had to be paying attention and I don't think anyone pays attention that closely except Shawn. But I do feel different, even now.

I feel as though I made a lot of mistakes today. It's not like turning a bolt in the wrong direction or something so easily defined, just a general sense of not doing as well as I want to. Leaves me feeling uneasy.