see ya

I had sort of envisioned an Irish goodbye by way of departure, but it didn't go that way. My girls planned a thing and the staff came out to it. I have a table filled with bouquets of flowers and bottles of booze. (They got one part right.) People said nice things to me all week long, which was fascinating in a way, because most of my interactions with staff (and students too, to be honest) leave me feeling like I am falling short of fixing whatever thing they wanted fixed, whether that was a schedule or just a whole worldview. Now I am asking myself, based on all the nice comments, if they actually think I am falling short or if that is just my own narrative getting in the way, and making me work a lot harder than I actually should. Regardless, although it was overwhelming, it was also very nice. I briefly felt like a famous person. If ever again so many people say complimentary things about me I will probably be hearing it all from underground.