Eating pins

in the middle of the night i awoke abruptly. it was that dream again, the one in which C is trying to kill me. C has been dead a long time now but it does not stop her from trying to kill me in my dreams with some frequency. in real life she tried to kill me sometimes too, mostly when we were children and i could outrun or out muscle her, but a couple of times in adulthood too. these memories are genuinely frightening and i think they must be the reason i have this dream. tomorrow we are going shopping for a new mattress. perhaps this will help me to sleep better.