Today I decided to answer the phone when C called which is something I have not done since August. I haven't spoken to her in about eight months. I didn't want to speak to her now either because I have grown fond of being able to draw a deep breath once again but she has been phoning incessantly asking for me. Sometimes I think about what the last thing I will have said to her will be when she dies. For that reason I try to keep it gentle, but it's only for the benefit of my conscience because she won't remember what I have said to her more than a few minutes. The last thing I said to her was okay. I said Okay. If that's it, I'm okay with that.



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Yann Martel and Cyprus Hill together on Strombo tonight. Strange combination. Martel's new book is being released tomorrow. I want to watch but I want to go to bed more. I don't know how to work the PVR properly but Shawn says he'll do it for me. Sometimes he's even more useful than decorative. Why am I so tired?


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