Stella

The shift to brighter and more creative things was more difficult than anticipated. We had to put down Em today. I took the afternoon off to be with the family as we said goodbye. Cried for awhile. Then packed it all up tightly and went to the interview feeling soggy and glum. But they sent me an email 20 minutes after the interview ended offering me the job. Which made me cry about Em some more. I miss him so much already, neurotic little weirdo. I don't know what my exit strategy at school looks like yet. But it makes it so much easier not to feel overwhelmed by the tidal waves that keep picking me up and tossing me around. Refusing to attend unnecessary meetings is very liberating.