This was the last day of work; now summer vacation.
Wrap up. I gave a big speech before the staff in honour of CE's retirement. This was somewhat difficult as a.) I do not particularly enjoy delivering speeches - Drama background notwithstanding, I am not a person who especially likes a microphone, b). CE is very special to me and her retirement means I will not see her very often anymore.
However, giving a speech is also cathartic, and I appreciated the opportunity to tell my colleagues how much she meant to me, and how much she (quietly) contributed without them even knowing. The feedback was warm, some in person and some text messages later in the evening. I appreciated it all, because I am not confident about these kinds of things. I have no doubt they knew I needed a little feedback. (The quaver in my voice would have told them so if they were listening.)
The boss is also leaving, and I was invited to participate in that send off, another opportunity I appreciated. My change in position in the school has resulted in great changes to my relationships with many people. This is both wonderful and frustrating. Wonderful to find that people are more human than I thought. Frustrating that it takes a change in position to earn the right to know so.
CM was lovely. She gave me her shirt, she gave me some dragons. She told me my speech was beautiful, she told me some secrets. Fuck I wish I had gotten to know her before she was leaving.