So the spiral has turned inside out again and I'm screwed. Totally screwed up. Lonelier than ever even with Shawn here beside me all week. How do you go around loneliness when it's gotten that big?

Tomorrow I'll go back to work. I'll talk to people all day. Might that help?

I'm more lost than I've been in a long time. Running around in circles. I have no one to talk to.