If it kills me

i suppose it's not particularly surprising that missing someone is amplified when you decide not to be around them, even when that is, unquestionably, the right thing to do. it's human nature, right? that, or i am incredibly difficult. S is going camping for a few days and i am feeling that this will be a good time to finish the last of the Summer Declutter. i am feeling irritable with S today, which may or may not be reasonable. in any case, my irritation leads nowhere but to the vaccuum cleaner.