distractions

The thing about feeling 23 is that it doesn’t just come with the good things; the sexual energy and the awareness of your own vitality. Those feelings crash over you like a wave, and then again, like a wave, recede.  And leave you in brackish water with all the insecurities that also come with being 23; the uncertainty around your own value, the knowing that you couldn’t really be that important to anyone.  The holes in your sense of self.  So when you get feeling superior about the way you outgrew all that shit, congratulations on your homeostatic middle age that doesn’t scare you or challenge you.  (Or you can pull yourself apart instead, if you want to, and find the same things at your core that have always been there.)




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